seven months. i haven't blogged in almost seven months. i've thought about it numerous times. i just didn't take the time to sit down and do it.
sadly, that's a picture of how my relationship with Christ has been. i'll say a prayer before a meal, or maybe at night, or when someone asks me to specifically remember them or some circumstance in prayer. but i haven't been in constant conversation with Him. i've not been disciplined in studying His Word either. i've allowed myself to be so occupied with the things and people around me, that i've forgotten Who is most important*.
*[i want to clarify that i'm not trying to throw a pity party or ask for sympathy. i'm simply trying to give an accurate description of my life. also, i am generalizing about the last seven months here. i do not believe i have been undisciplined and neglectful for all of that time. again, i just want to provide an accurate description.]
in that time, a lot has happened. i have strengthened relationships; and i have played my part in damaging them. i have dishonored Christ; i have dishonored my friends and family. i have watched and comforted friends in tough times; and i have neglected to do so when i should have. i have hurt close friends; and i have been hurt by close friends. i have experienced unemployment; i have experienced the frustrations of the job search; and i have found comfort in familarity and job security. i have experienced the excitement of a new house and a new car; i have experienced the gut-wrenching feeling of not knowing what to do or where to go. i have witnessed the joy of engagements and marriages and births; and i've seen the heartache of death and divorce.
all of this to say that i believe that in the most recent weeks and months, i have reached a turning point. i want to be in constant communion with the Lord. i'm relearning how to be His child. i'm slowly learning how to renew broken relationships. so, please bear with me.
and i am sorry if you have been hurt or offended by me or my actions. i'm earnestly asking for your forgiveness.
[and i am hoping to blog more often than every seven months. just a heads up.]
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i have found myself at a turning point as well. and it is so good and so hard. but i am so grateful that the Lord has given me the opportunity to relearn... and draw close yet again.
and i am sincerely asking for your forgiveness for any and all things i've done to hurt/offend you.
(do post more often tho)
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