i'm on the up and up

so, wow. can't believe it has been so long since i've posted. nevermind. i can totally believe it. anyway, a little progress in my life... very soon, i will no longer be working at my mediocre retail job - yay! i was hired full-time at another local establishment (super yay!) - a call center... but not the annoying kind... the kind of call center where people call me to make hotel reservations, and i set it up for them. i realize this is not a glamorous job,... perhaps no better than the retail job. but, it is more hours and more pay. and that's a good thing. i'll continue living with my awesome friends and looking for forensics jobs while i'm working there.

speaking of my awesome friends... we're going to be doing a bit of a garden project this spring/summer. it should prove to be interesting, and i think, exciting. :) each of the members of the household are responsible for a certain vegetable or vegetables. we'll have tomatoes, peppers, radishes, onions, squash, lettuce, and so much more! and, yours truly will be in charge of a variety of herbs. this is honestly a pretty daunting task. i've grown pretty much nothing in my life. and now i'm responsible for these herbs - from planning and planting to watering and pruning to harvesting. anyway, there will hopefully be a blog soon... but until it is really up and going, i'm not going to post the address. but soon.

i have a lot to say today, but i'm probably going to try to space it out a bit... a little today, and hopefully a little more tomorrow.... but before i cut it short, the inspiration for the title of this post is a relient k song. two of their songs have been hitting me really hard in the last week or so: up and up and be my escape. if you've never heard these songs, i highly recommend them both - or at least read the lyrics! in fact, i'll give you a little bit of each of them:

from be my escape:

i’m giving up on doing this alone now

cause i’ve failed and i’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and i’m trying to get there
and this life sentence that i'm serving

i admit that i’m every bit deserving
but the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
cause i’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity

and i’ve been locked inside that house

all the while You hold the key
and i’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
...and i’m begging You to be my escape

from up and up:

yesterday was not quite what it could've been

as were most of all the days before
but I swear today with every breath I'm breathing in

i'll be trying to make it so much more
cause it seems I get so hung up on

the history of what's gone wrong

and the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
...to be prosperous would not require much of me

you see contentment is the one thing it entails

to be content with where i am

and getting where i need to be

i'm moving past the past where i have failed

...and i'm finally catching onto it

and now the past is just a conduit

and the light there at the end is where i'll be
cause i'm on the up and up

...and i haven't given up

given up on what i know i'm capable of
and I'm on the up and up

...yeah there's nothing left to prove

cause i'm just trying to be a better version of me for You

a better version of me for You